As I write this, it's hard to believe I am 54 years old. When I tested positive, I seriously did not expect to live to see my 30th birthday. When 40 came, I was deep in addiction, incredibly distant to friends and family, disconnected from myself and my passions. And now, I am strong, grateful, meaningfully engaged in life, giving back to my communities of HIV/AIDS, recovery, my LGBTQA family, reconnected with family and friends.
Last year as I rode in my second AIDS/LifeCycle , I fully felt the joy, pain, heartache and pride of being a rider in the 2019 and I celebrated 36 years of living with HIV. I will never forget the feeling of reaching the Halfway point, clambering off my bike and into the arms of my Palm Springs buddies, collapsing in tears of humility and pride and joy -- as I write this, the tears flow so easily at what I was able to achieve -- not alone, never alone, but as part of a much stronger whole.
The LifeCycle family is beyond compare. Supportive, empowering, hilarious, quiet and strong and loud all at once. I learned to practice more compassion, patience, and understanding while living in our tent city and on the road with 3000 of my new closest friends over the week, in remembrance of those we have lost, my dear Scott Fowler, my first lover, Linwood Detharidge, and so many others, whose faces and names I can and can't recall.
"Bring it" is my new motto in life and I celebrate the challenges of the ride, and the pure love found in our very own unique Love Bubble. I have a lot more life to live and can't imagine a better way to inspire myself and others while doing great things for my own community, than raising money to end AIDS while sightseeing our gorgeous state from North to South. My goal is to raise $15,000 and I don't doubt for a minute that I will get there. WON'T YOU PLEASE BE A PART OF MY JOURNEY by making a contribution?
WIth Love and Gratitude, XOXO
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