So, I turned 40 and it turned out to be a whole thing.
I tried to play it cool. I really did. I joked about my mid-life crisis and how it prompted me to join a gym. I celebrated with family, with old friends and new ones. I took myself on vacation and only got a minor sunburn because I’m now so comfortable in my own skin. I hit pause, and I looked around me, and I was happy, and I was lucky, and I was suddenly also a little ashamed.
Because the truth is, I have always been lucky. I have always known that I am loved, supported, and appreciated. I know this on a level that doesn’t even require thought. And when I made myself pause and think about it, I realized that I was incredibly incredibly fortunate, but I wasn’t doing a lot with that good fortune. Sure, I work with teenagers and some people think that makes me a saint, but I love it and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
So, I turned 40 and I started looking around for a way I could make a difference. A way that I could spread some of my good fortune around. And life being the weird thing it is, I kept meeting people this summer who had gone on the AIDS/LifeCycle ride and who were practically vibrating with an appreciation for the experience and a deep respect for the cause. So, I did some research and here I am. Haven’t been on a bicycle in at least 20 years. Deeply conflicted about the skintight attire. But on fire to raise funds for the Los Angeles LGBT Center and to help in my small way.
What they do there is amazing. Access to healthcare for those in real need. Housing for youth who have nowhere else to turn. Everyday, they create that sense of love, support, and appreciation for people in Los Angeles who don’t have the luxury of taking it for granted.
So, I turned 40 and it turned out that the whole thing is: I can do more. I will do more. And I would love it if you could support me.
PLUS - if you donate to support my ride, I'll send you an awesome button that my crazy talented cousin KTJ designed just because she's a total pushover and I love her! Get yours today :)